Tuesday, December 04, 2007
lets talk about jealousy
she has the hair, I have the metabolism rate
before her birth, she was though to be a guy and I a girl during scans.
born prematured, I was pale and have weird eyesight which keeps on improving cept the myopic rate.
they are confident while I suffer from low self-esteem.
they rock at math while I suck at it throughout.
my language skills rock though cept my father tongue.
science, humans.. there's no point in looking back.
same blood, same origins but we don't look all that simillar
every family needs a blacksheep. haha
posted at [11:25 PM]
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Friday, November 23, 2007
you know me, years we've been together.
we lasted through the years. I want to thank you peeps for everything and so much more. You've all transcended friendship. I've learnt so much from all of you. Can't thank you enough. Though some of us didn't had the chance to work in projects together, i'm thankful that you all assist and reassures me. Thanks for setting me in my place and changing me for the better over time =) thanks for the meetups, movies, bbqs, picnics and everything.
this won't be the first or last time i'm giving a treat. nothing grand, just pizza hut. hope to see all those invited there. I wish to not only express my feelings through words, actions are important to. Thanks for agreeing to attend at such short notice. Nxt wk sunday =)
PS: Glad to see that i've touched some lives and made majority better whilst some worse. For those that I ruined or left a hurtful signa upon. Sorry is not enough. Forgiveness is nothing. I'm no saint, hate me or curse at me. You've the right for all of that and much more.
pss: when I leave sg or fadeaway, i'd know that i've achieved some of my goals in life. thank you for being part of it. past, present, future. cya there
posted at [10:06 PM]
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Monday, November 19, 2007
He likes to act like he's all grown up
He wanted to grow up to be an actor But he never told anybody
He likes to spill all of his guts
On the top of a well stocked bar
And then swallow them bit by bit remembering every scar As a valid reason for every drink
And a new tattoo is a new reason to think
He likes to pretend that he is all sewn up
It makes for a much stronger case But there is blood underneath that skin
That scar is not so easy to erase
He walks with a glass cane now
He's careful when holding his body up straight
Can't go outside when it's raining
Can't smash up that beautiful face
Another innocent girl just made his list
That self pity shit is just too hard to resist
And when we get home you'll see that this part of him is now part of me
And its way too easy to fake this smile lead you on
Maybe I'm wrong but everyone gets bored once in awhile
Song: Another Innocent Girl
Artiste: Alkaline Trio
PS: I don't see how you could affect me. Can't be bothered with what anyone thinks. The latest song i'm putting on replay. I never liked the "wild" stint. You may think i've grown weak and soft but what you think means nothing to me n_n. Can't even be bothered to head out for the sun and my hair's like shit..
so assuming, so piercing
so damn irritating
I hate your eyes
full of hate
but i've never ever been talking to you for once so back off with your bloody stare.
I don't stare back cos I can't be bothered with your kind..
Some stupid girl.
Some people have AP. AP= attitude problem. Like I never once spoke to you. Yeah.
posted at [11:49 PM]
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Saturday, November 10, 2007
Today I pray, I seek the sky.
trampled upon for hate's wrath
I rose, I fought for what it's worth
Today I seek the sky again
If I pass on prior to my destination
May it rain blood upon this land
fill the rivers and streams with what drains from me
I can't be here forever.
I live once and when I fade
let the skeptics remember the date.
The date I fell for what I believed in 100%
bonded with my final breath
posted at [3:02 PM]
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Thursday, November 01, 2007
heya. skipped school today.. feeling so worn out. I can't seem to wait for tomorrow. It's been quite some time and all.
to that weird girl:
I personally think you're a great friend to have around. Regarding yesterday and the remark that I have broad shoulders and everything. Truth is, I don't. Haven't been exercising or anything. It's just that you've took more time off to notice me yesterday or something.
ahh.. friends.
maybe it's time to meet up or go our own ways. having dinner with idz tomorrow while the others are having exams and stuff. Hafizah.. we will party after your A levels. It's a promise. I haven't tried sheesha or anything.. but I won't pass on the offer. 2 years since we last met, yeah?. since the bbq or something.
I'm sorry I kinda fadedaway and all. I didn't mean to miss all the meetups on purpose. I really miss you peeps. Perhaps someday, we'll get to catch the movies again. Hang around once more. I'm really caught up in life now but I know its not a valid excuse. Sorry.
To the people who look down on me or disappear.
Is it because of my attire, my appearance? I'm not bothered by your thoughts/opinions about me. You can continue undermining me, my abilities. You can never get me down.
I've come way too far.. struggled for way too long, worked too hard, I bled too much.. I won't ever tear again and the scars remain, the same - Fai 1 Nov 07
Don't see right through me, I won't be your shadow. Don't expect me to be there for you.. when you're already gone.
Dear uncle... heard that you're in the hospital for kidney problems.. just afew mins ago.. you can't go yet k.. your family needs you...
-Fai
posted at [11:43 AM]
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Thursday, October 04, 2007
competition breeds assholes.
posted at [10:54 PM]
confusion and frustration in modern times
I don't get it why people seem to bother about my matters when I don't.
what was unexpected? my success.. dumbasses
PS: carry on bothering about me, its futile. carry on looking down on me. You just don't know. You hate my fantastic memory, move along.
if you are afraid of honesty or you just want to get into my pants please just continue on your merry way.
posted at [2:20 PM]
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Sunday, September 30, 2007
hey blog.
drafted as an event coordinator yesterday. Yeah. That pink elephant's b-day.
you know Sharity?. He's 7 this year.
I can't believe my future will be more or less this way. Event Management, coordination, tourism and stuff. I'm not saying I hate the money or anything. You know money means nought to me.
The hours are tough, the work is tedious. I almost fainted yesterday. What a loser right?. You know, I used to be in the corps. Parades and stuff never once fazed me, I never really had to fall out. Yesterday was an exception.
Have you tried standing under the hot sun from 9:30-7? Felt so giddy yesterday. Its hard to keep a smile on for the kids and try to focus on the job at hand.
I was incharge of like a games stall. Needed to bend down every 3seconds or so. I'm serious. Wtv man. The kids looked happy, I did my part. Thats all.
I get along well with my colleagues more than majority of the people I see everyday. It's not about the money or anything. Some of them are older than me. Mostly are about my age. They refer to me as the friendly one. Volunteering and everything.
First time working with des. Kinda fun. Prolly the first and last time i'd be meeting those peeps yesterday. You guys were great!!
PS: at least I didn't had to go on stage and dance in an elephant's outfit =p
posted at [2:12 PM]
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