finally im back,im feeling dizzy.
entered msn today,my 13 yr friend. can fcuking die man.
so many days nvr enter msn,once enter tio..
u fucking asshole?
[inserttheexpletivesinmy mindhere]
what i don't say out,i hope you all know it from within.
i never thought id be sooo dissed with my friend man,fcuk his behaviour .its so childish.what the fcuk happened after his graduation?.ITE turned him crazy?
my final words to you today
If
to protect me
You
along the lines
Had
to hurt me
Delibrately
please know that
I'd
rather you
Stop
fcukin' protect me.
i think i might die today,fever,this weird headache.maybe im overworked.probably =(
posted at [3:01 PM]
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its been quite sometime.
15 days
finally got your mail,Havn't seen u around lately.
we met online
2years back
I remember the time,we chatted throughout the night 10-3
it was a school week.
asked me out on a skating trip.
declined it politely
went there anyway with some friends.
saw you,maybe you saw me
asked me what i was doing,not joining in.
told you I didn't mix around easy.
you were angry
I remember asking you out for a gig
2 days till i got ur reply
seems to me,you've been to italy
I did this real hateful thing.
thus
when you fell real sick
you didn't come talk to me
didn't know it till afew wks later
guess my anguish,when i heard the news.
heard from that mail,that you're doing better
studies and stuff,i'd sure ur meant for greater heights
don't worry
PS: in gratitude of this girl,who stayed by my side and helped me out throughout.Havn't seen her around lately though.yeah.my closer friends might've heard of her. She's really a good friend of mine. A spunky girl. whom ive not seen online for almst 1/2 a year now.tho we send each other stuff now and then.
posted at [9:08 AM]
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
i think im going crazy.im gonna pen something down here.sorry.don't get worried over this,please.I just need to destress.
my wings are torn.
I can't fly,no matter how hard I try
if there's a heaven,i know i might never get there with all the bad things i've commited.
I hate lying..
its a fact,If things carry on this way
I just can't pick myself up anymore.
I wish I had someone to share this burden with.
but everything falls squarely on my shoulders.
I wanna say that i'd be okay,but im feeling sucidal and crazy.
to keep losing everything,everyone slowly one by one..
everything is taking its toll.
my body.Its not failing me..
but im losing this battle.
posted at [12:37 AM]
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kinda fcuked. =(
yeah.
everyone seemed drained yesterday.
finally found that song,the 1 i lost =)
hope everyone feels better
pop-py madness,ALMOST everyone seems to be looking for love.
me,im kinda happy.The way it is.I Guess??.
did I mention that I have a weak heart?IM NOT DELICIOUS.
Dig On This.Im POISONOUS!!! =x
ermx.saw hilmi and haikal yesterday,yeah. =)
wahahax.hilmi my friend of 13 yrs leh..
im burnt out too,you heard it from me
posted at [12:23 AM]
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hear my screams,im crazy i know
my penny's worth
my words
makes me wonder whether I should hate you
At times,I know I should.
I know that you won't believe
I can't.
I care,hate is not part of it
spark of fire,burning me to pieces.
out of words to say.
running's not working
crossroads,my insecurities
tears
they're not spilling
effects of your words,cut me to pieces.
I just can't resist.
you left me speechless
might've left you with none to believe.
shut out all the others
I just can't do this
can't resist
shut me with my insecurites,no one to believe.
PS: my 1st song? or sth...i know its not that good.inspired from this really bad incident.I call it 'Please Don't Believe'. Ironically.
Hope anyone comments on it.
err, thanks for the people who stood by me. You Really Mean Alot.
posted at [11:13 PM]
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