I Miss You(Wish I Could Say That Now)
hey.yea the title is kinda weird huh?.It would make a great song title don't u agree?
1st things 1st.may everyone who is seeing this post not comment on it k...
i returned for my cca yesterday.saw her while me and leon was entering..the school.rite.
k man.she looked abit different..sad or sth perhaps.maybe she's not sad...juz irritated.maybe its cos that she saw me or sth.so yeah.im cool wif it.i knew itd be wrong to appoach someone who's like really irritated with you or sth lyk dat.so i decided to hurry to my cca room.on the way there.
Leon:she's changed already
Me:.....
Leon:she's changed alot
Me:....guess so
Me:hey leon.u sent her an sms abt a wk back.did she reply?
Leon:no.never reply
Me:k yea.wish i could help her.
Leon:ya lar.dunno wad happened.she is avoiding me too.What did she do or u do.
Me:hmm.w8 ar.abt 1wk back.Friday.i went are u avoiding me..she went nope.can u dun msg me alrdy?my bill gonna bust liao.
Leon:Ok
Me:4get it man.i tink nothing 1 de lar.shudn't be avoiding u.if she avoid me is natural de *grins*.Life's lyk dat.
kkz.after the cca.We went to play some ball.Leon,Jin Hui & Me.At uppercourt.its the place where the 3 of us 1st met my godsis & my ex.7mth19days back.nonono.dun bother asking me who my ex or godsis is cos i wouldnt tell u anyway.
its kinda dumb man.conversations ruled the court.and playing was at an all-time low.seriously ar.i oso no mood to play de.after hearing to the talks.
so fuckit man.i got kinda low.had a 2-v-1 match to get me hot.the adrenaline thing into my veins.kk.had some nice shots frm the mid.somehow went deep into my thoughts while playing ball.let in some goals.hey man its weird.like im playing ball.but my mind keeps flashing back & forth between the sms's,flashbacks of the things me,my godsis and my ex said on msn,memories & reality.
Leon suddenly rammed my injured leg.forcing me to wake up.it hurts like mad cos my leg is injured and im suffering from serious backaches.but Thx anyway.i hate it when i tink too much.
couldn't really help it man.we're playing Pingpong.Leon & hui love calling it tennis but its called Pingpong.damn sian.everytym i think too much.later will kena ram d.Irritating.
all in all.its a weird day.dunno who spoiled who's day.my appearance spoiled hers or hers mine.I like to see ppl smile cos i dun really have anything to smile about.so like.the expression on her face wasn't helping much lar.
u know dis stuff really made me lose my sleep and i had been rolling around from the time that cowboy bebop anime ended to abt 7:54am when i finally gave in and wrote stuff on dis blog.
PS:wish that i could say i miss you.its true.but i dun miss THIS person.I won't miss anyone who've given up on me and then his or herself.cos its stupid.i wouldnt give a heck if anyone gave up on me but giving up on urself is the STUPIDEST!!! thing ever.
PSS:I knew that after we broke up.our friendship wouldn't last long.no matter what she said initially.Im trying......to hold on to wtv still links us together.FRIENDSHIP?.Maybe it means nothing to you.its so hard to hold on to anything when im doing everything on my own and its really killing me.I HOPE THAT ID NEVER SAY: IVE DONE ENOUGH. cos it means ive given up just like u on this friendship.I accept the fact tat its over.Is it really that hard to even remain friends after breaking up?we dun even need to talk man.all we have to do is not to pretend that the other party dun exist.If its Really hard for you.Tell me.Nah U won't....so get my sis to tell me and then Id say IVE DONE ENOUGH
no hard feelings whatsoever,forever.on my part.
PSSS:hey.u guys would prolly have noticed that afew posts went missing.I deleted em lar.cos they contained my ex's initials and that many people wanted to know who she is.Its over d.So i decided to delete posts expressing my feelings towards her.Not all posts but about 7 of em.the point for me to write dis is so that id at least have a vague idea of how i felt now and then.So dun comment on this post k.I promise to fill u all in bout my life.i only took a hiatus for afew days.Besides my life is not a movie.no point puting everything in it.The other few posts will be censored as in lightened not of swear words but content :P and dun try to look into my smiles.dun tink too much.
yee on is leaving SG once more.1 lepaking bro gone...remember him guys? & gals?
posted at [8:02 AM]
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