Wednesday, October 25, 2006
ive gotten a haircut..and it looks stupid...haha
1st of all..id like to wish ISLA a Happy B-day(her bdae falls on Hari Raya)
wonder how her bday in scotland went....
hmm.been days since i last posted anything i guess.Got quite afew invites to play pool,lan(Local Area Network) gaming and stuff.Ive been rather fine.Thank You!Don't Worry about me till you're done worrying about yourself.
So like I met up with quite afew people today,went to HM to find a cd and stuff.Kinda funny,how my friends told me that my ex was taking a plastic or sth to hide her face.I was like going...AM I THAT UGLY!!! to lighten the mood.Dudes & Dudettes Everywhere.Im fine with anyone who like has 0 intention to like befriend me or like wants to hide from me.Seriously,Im too lazy to bother.Thats why like I totally stopped hanging out,sms-ing and stuff with people.C'mon im peaceful man.If anyone wants to leave me alone like avoid me.I won't purposly go disturb.Im cool with it.
aitez.This yr's Hari Raya.The Saddest I Had..but,I finally got to meetup with my relatives again..=)
i won pool...all cept 1 round....haha.won SO many rounds.im bored. =p
posted at [10:34 PM]
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
finally got this weird pic from Leon after a wk or sth.Im gonna upload Leon's "Pool Eyeball" pic soon.haha.We're all into the pool-craze.
more imptly Id like to thank the following people( <33)>for the last couple of months.
1)Leon(jio-ing me out,notes)
2)Jin Hui(jio-ing me for soccer,notes)
3)Edmund(welcomed me into his house,owns a weird dog who doesn't even bark but instead wag its tail when it sees me for the 1st time even)
4)Sean(resident smoker/drinker and a gd disciple)
5)Hwee Yuen(resident smoker/drinker)
6)Raphael(resident smoker/drinker)
7)Psyduck(notes,tagging my board)
8)Cheng Kang(for getting me involved in weird/stupid stuff which is stupid but entertaining,Resident Smoker)
and the 2 girls who got me to quit smoking and gang stuff unknowingly.
hmm.ty.You've all been good listeners.TY resident smokers whom ive used to smoke with and not offer me cigs after i told u all not to.
ty leon for telling me that i look guai without wax..haha
hope that this friday's gathering is not cancelled..meeting for all muslims from my batch.The gals organised a break-fast thingy or sth lyk dat.hope to cya guys/gals then.
-FYI-
hidden,sad msgs involving 3 guys and a golden-haired weirdo
6/4/6,5/4/5,1/4/5,9/3/6
and the inevitable heartaches.haha
posted at [11:11 PM]
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I kept my promises
and im feeling abit stupid about it.
no1s gonna read this.but i just want to say that.
you never see me anymore,but im always there..helping you.
and its killing me - Fai 10/10/06(Dark & gloomy Tuesday) Yan
Attuned to the loneliness in my heart now,im cool with it.Putting my studies infront of my friends and you behind everything else?Eyes glazed with dust.I don't really have much to talk about.Im STILL yearning for forgiveness from everyone.
and the child in us said forever.Now i know you've cheated me like some of my friends....forever friends?forever bros?forever bliss?there's never a forever for anything.
I Know Now
Sometimes Forever Means Never...
and even though i really still wanna smoke when im pissed at least i don't do it now.ive been clean for abt 3wks after that topic which suddenly popped up in the midst of a convo.You knew me the most.Its weird.And I still can't find anyone regardless of gender who understand me so well.but i will continue searching.Im seriously lacking in friends and Id really appreciate it if I had more.But its funny,the way I burn them off.
Don't Be A Stranger =(
err.strangers and badder people than me should remain as strangers.I won't turn to all ye suckers.
I just wanna be with you..
wtv lar i don't need anyone
girls,guys,friends or foes
light or darkness
any will do.
my shadow will accompany me whenever there's light,whenever its dark...id think of.....
yeah2 i love the darkness too.i do admit.sometimes im afraid.hahax.wtv man.not THAT afraid.Imma coward =p
I hope you'd respect my privacy and not like err tell anyone abt this gay-ish blog of mine or like speak of any part of it to ur friends.
its better to not even link me man.will appreciate ppl who not link me
every single thing you said,sticks around inside my head...
-FaiY-
posted at [11:11 PM]
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wonder why im here even..its 3 o'clk.
and just so fooking bored.yeah.its the fasting month and im trying to keep myself in check.
practically stayed to watch Kid's Central and stuff man.Lazing around.Alternating between my music,pcs,my bed(TV infront of me) and staring at the ceiling as always.Things are kinda boring nowadays.At least life's not extreme.
Guess im jaded,its like nothing interests me anymore.im going "whatever" all the time.Guess my attitude's puting lotsa ppl away.lolx.Dun really care abt them anyway.hahax
yup.it doesn't mean anything.anything that i say here.juz crap.
[Desolate ] + [Emotions ] + [Fake Smile ] + [Burning Bridges ] =========>> A jaded ME
i prefer to remain silent and there's nothing you can do about it.
posted at [3:05 PM]
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