Wednesday, November 29, 2006
hey...
im alive. surprised? I don't blame you. (x
once again,im isolating myself.Its the stupidest thing.Don't really know why im doing it tho~.Wondering whether the depression bug got me or something.Lethargy bites me in the joints,everything.Like im in a coma or something.I feel as if im ready to go.Where?To die of course.haha.Nah.maybe the days are just getting repetitive and isolation has got to me.I really feel that I can relate more to the songs I listen to than the people around me.
a minor part of a chat ive had...
[-dart- ™ ] my head is spinning and im not on drugs says:
we should always lo forward and move ahead
[Zecter-Hunter] -HYPER CLOCK UP- says:
faisal./....i really wonder at times.....how do i have a friend like you who optimistic one
[-dart- ™ ] my head is spinning and im not on drugs says:
cos ive been through many bad things....
[-dart- ™ ] my head is spinning and im not on drugs says:and without my friends or the will to move on...id be stuck
[-dart- ™ ] my head is spinning and im not on drugs says:there
[Zecter-Hunter] -HYPER CLOCK UP- says:
heh....i am very thankful
[-dart- ™ ] my head is spinning and im not on drugs says:
dw.to tell u the truth..initially in sec 4 midway..i hated u..lol.but i moved on fast
[-dart- ™ ] my head is spinning and im not on drugs says:
btw if ur wondering...i m thankful to have a friend like you too
[-dart- ™ ] my head is spinning and im not on drugs says:
[Zecter-Hunter] -HYPER CLOCK UP- says:
keke....i reflected and i agree faisal, n i dun blame you
[Zecter-Hunter] -HYPER CLOCK UP- says:
cos in sec sch.....i made a huge ton of mistakes
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seriously ive been wondering,am I really that nice to have around or anything?.basically.Ive been an ass more than once and i know it.aitez.enough of the bad stuff.but seriously who am I kidding?myself?I know that im not as optimistic anymore and the attitude I have currently comes at a price.basically.Ive gotten some pretty nasty comments that im overly-pessimistic that it makes me optimistic.That im too used to shelv-ing my feelings that ive become a fake.
lastly.I dunno when i'll post next.still id like to thank the people around me for everything.and of course Idz...for revamping this blog...and for all those ppl who pestered me to update.
still im left wondering whether its true that as long as there are no dreams,there wont be any failures.If yes.I wanna be nothing when I grow up.forgotten even.who I am and who I make up.I know what i want in life.
you asked me what i learnt from the all the breakups from my 1st ex till like now.total of 3 i guess.
well overall. Id kid myself that.If I have everything that I want now,there wouldn't be any point to living in the future.it sounds cool huh.sensible perhaps.
dear bloggy.ur so irritatingly weird looking and nice to have around.but some things i still will not write here.lets say.my REAL blog is in my Heart.Ur nothing but a mistake waiting to happen and maybe id have to delete you...sooner or later.
I hope that friday will come faster...then we'll speak.and i'll show you how a good actor I am.and then you'll say..ur SO optimistic sia. =)
im bound to fail as a songwriter,should i even be present on the 14th to support my cousin's band?.
cross my heart,I miss all my brothers and sisters.SO sorry if i seemed distant lately.
Ive tried my best,but I failed you still====>hopefully not
lets pray that I don't go 'I've Done Enough' anytime soon.Labels: Bury Me Underground
posted at [11:20 PM]
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