Monday, February 05, 2007
omg..
i feel fcuking alive..its a weird feeling but I like it.
im hopeful and POSITIVE of my results..
this feeling that Id score.
the assurance that im alive,finally its gonna be out.
im sick of waiting.
i know it means nothing much to anyone else...but i threw everything away for this.FCUK!!
fought back tears,mind and the sense of empty-ness to go through the papers
after all ive put in.i know im gonna pass.somehow
how should i describe this current feeling?
like ive got everything i ever wanted in life?the girl,the cash,friends,family...everything.
like im top dog in the world.
fcuking swear that i can take on a 7-foot enemy now..with my bare hands and tear him/her/it apart.
endorphin?nah.I've not been exercising or out in the sun or smoking or eating chocs.
I don't do drugs EVER.
reminds me of my first kiss,the first cut,the first leap...i feel alive
today im king,tomorrow will see.embrace me..
if anyone sees me now...they'd think im nuts..but i feel REAL good.
if only i could talk to you now but i can't..it'll be my best day on Earth.
im half-smiling now,100 thank yous to you my ex.the impact you've had.
everything i wrote.
you made me feel alive,you always amazed me..ALWAYS!!
this change in me,you won't ever get to see.
As I pray,heaven hold you close.
I'll be alright here.thank you!!!
you're not here with me now
all the best to you too... =)
self-reliant,I feel like a king today.this post is not about broken hearts,its about me.
posted at [10:53 PM]
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